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Name: Amanda
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Metro: Quakertown
Birthday: 7/21/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: *reading*writing*drawing*hanging out with friends*Rammstein*Papa Roach*Rob Zombie*HIM*Slipknot*Iron Maiden*The Used*Pink Floyd*Mudvayne*Static-X*Metallica*Marilyn Manson*Disturbed*Godsmack*Black Label Society*Going to the mall*The Darkness in the Night*Walks along the beach during a thunderstorm*Drums*Electric n Bass Guitars*Hugs*Kisses*Cuddling*Cradle of Filth*Senses Fail*From Autumn to Ashes*Atreyu*Avenged Sevenfold*Nirvana*Slayer*Black Sabbath*Gravity Kills*Velvet Revolver*HIM*Powerman 5000*Hawthorne Heights*Led Zeppelin* Lynyrd Skynyrd*Metallica*Nevermore*Pantera*SouthPark*Family Guy*
Expertise: Giving advice mainly
Occupation: Slacker
Message: message me
AIM:  xdisasterbeauty
Yahoo:  rawrrr_itsmanda
MSN: rawrrr.manda.rose@hotmail.com
Member Since:
8/19/2005
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| So, it's been a while since I've written anything in here. I figure I'd write how I feel, see how many people answer, just to see if anybody ACTUALLY still reads these things.
Has anybody ever felt so alone in everything they do, like nobody would be there for you when you fell? That's kind of how I feel right now. I don't even know why I feel like this, I just do. I have labrinthytis. It's a dizzying sensation caused by a sickness or a head trauma, and it fucking sucks. I roll over in bed and I almost hit my head on the wall because when I roll over... I get dizzy... I stand up I get dizzy. I TRY TO PUT MY HAIR UP AND I GET DIZZY. At least it's not as bad as Monday though, I had nausea that day too, really bad nausea.
Back to the subject at hand. I really feel alone in everything, like nobody is trying to help me get anywhere in life. Nobody is helping me get a job, a license, or a car. All of the people I talked to in high school don't talk to me anymore. It's kind of saddening, all the people I was close to, are too busy :( I understand that they have college and stuff, jobs, and more important things to do than talk to lil old me... but an email, or a random IM, comment or something would be nice like once a month... cause I miss everybody...
Well, I moved again and am no longer in Downingtown so everybody that said they were going to visit me, good luck finding me. I'm in Bucks County now.
I don't have my cell phone anymore, which sucks. I don't have the money to keep the prepaid POS going.
I must go though, bye.
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| So, as graduation gets near... I'm feeling more lazy. I guess it's usual for a senior to feel this way when they know that graduation is less than two months away.
Project is due on Monday. Yay, I have it done!
I need to work on my portfolio.
Need to move stuff into another room this weekend.
Matt's over :) Yay.
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| I'm so excited for the weekend!!!
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| So, today is the 7th. I have A little less than three months of school left EVER.
Today
school is also canceled. Why? I have no idea. There's not much snow on
the ground. It's not icy, and it sure as hell isn't slippery outside. I
should know. I was just outside. I shouldn't have a problem with not
going to school, but why am I complaining? Ooooh, because I can 
I
went outside to work on my senior project with my SLR camera... the
batteries dead. I just bought it! That pissed me off... so... I just
used my digital camera. Now I can't have pretty snow pictures from my
SLR... just my digital... 
Anywho...
we're talking again and I'm happy. We will not be specified. If I've
already told you who we is then you must be special to me... if I
haven't told you who we is... ask and you may be answered.
I need like... 7 more hours on my senior project. I need to get this done. DAMN YOU BATTERIES! | | |
| So, I haven't written in this thing for a while.
Started senior year.
Had a life for a while.
Have no life again.
No more boyfriend.
Still no license.
Still fat.
Still ugly.
School sucks like always.
I'm almost done my senior project. I have about 13 hours. Started the rough draft of my research paper. Blah.
Haven't taken SATs. Not going to college next year. I'm taking a year off so I can get my thoughts together and look at colleges more thoroughly without school and homework getting in the way.
A lot of people are pissing me off these days so if I just up and disappear from the internet for a while I apologize right now.
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